Last couple of weeks had been hell, somewhere mixed in the chaos were my friend Adrian's death, some bad luck on the practical exams, and high levels of stress caused by Pharmacology and Pathology. Mini3 scores are out and this is by far my WORST exam. I am not going to share my grades, but I'll just say - this almost made a hypomanic person (like me) depressed. Thank God for such amazing family and friends who gave me encouragement and support through the rough times. No, I am not a quitter. And I will kick the final exams right in the arse!!I was chatting with my Dad today and mentioned how I wished I was a Pharmacist or an EMT or something between my undergrad and Med school. But my friends who did those things told me that I was better off just heading straight into Med school, like I am now. Is this just another greener grass on the other side sorta thing? I am kinda envious of their situation because they are not struggling to learn the drug names and uses. They could use their actual experience to help them out on the exam to answer those amazingly ambiguous questions because they had been there, seen that. Sigh... no point in complaining. God brought me here at this time for a reason and I just have to keep going.
Just do my best.
The grass is greener on the other side, and it'll just keep on growin' till you get there. :)
ReplyDeletep.s. save some grass for me..
You still don't sound depressed as for a med student you should know what depression means, and it means prolonged feeling of sadness unworthiness which does not show here as of yet! ;)
ReplyDeleteLook at it this way hun...if you finish the school you could be Pharmacist too - nobody is stopping you! Even with what you already have (you already have a degree!) you could find work...you do not NEED this school, you went there because you WANT to be a doctor, something more! IF you decide to quit at this point, you've still done enough to find work...I wouldn't be worried about it! As far as med school not being easy...it is true...but just remember a goal and why you are there...I also find it funny that you say that Pharmacist do not struggle to learn the drug names and uses, when that's EXACTLY what Pharmacists are all about! If they don't learn that, they should not have a job...
I want to remind you what the title of your blog says..Follow what sets your heart on fire. Move forward, one step at a time.
ReplyDeleteI studied in a british school and we had to memorize about 50 big ass org compound structures.. i freaked out before exams.. what helped was One compound at a time! Unless i finish the 1st one, i cant move to the second! So- one drug at a time.! hope this helps! all the best!
Thank you :)
ReplyDeleteThat meant a lot and totally just made my day. And I am tackling Pharm right now...
Moving along!